How do you deal with fear of recurrence?

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I struggle with this every single day. I don’t want to pretend otherwise.

Every new symptom, every ache, every unexplained pain makes me wonder, What if it’s back?

I’m a single mom to a six-year-old daughter, and more than anything in this world, I just want to be here to watch her grow up.

But despite everything I’ve been through, and despite the fear of recurrence that will probably always be somewhere in the back of my mind, here’s what I’ve learned.

I am better because of what I went through. I am stronger because of it.

And I’ve learned that while I can’t control everything, I can control how I choose to live with non toxic living the best that I can.

Not because I believe doing all of this guarantees cancer won’t return, but because it’s the best thing I can do for my body, my mind, and my overall well-being.

I think those of us who have walked through cancer understand life in a way we never did before. As horrible as the experience was, it changed us. It made us stronger, more resilient, and more appreciative of the little things we once took for granted.

The fear is still there. But so is the gratitude.